Farewell Depression, Welcome Freedom

 I have suffered from depression since I was in high school and likely even before that.  I had no idea what was wrong with me.  I just felt depressed all the time even though I had a great life.  I was good in school, had great jobs, great friends, a great family – nothing was wrong except for how I felt all the time.  When I was about 24, I had a boyfriend who told me he was leaving me because he couldn’t handle my depression and that I should go on medication.  What the hell was depression?  I had no idea what he meant.  I went to the doctor and was put on medication and lived on it for years.  I was angry, mean, suicidal, even cutting myself at times because it was the only way I knew to get the rage out without going insane.  I always just thought that I was crazy and many times would dare myself to commit suicide, sometimes taking enough pills before going to bed that I didn’t know if I would wake up.  It was a very difficult time and the worst part is that I hid it from almost everyone.  I remember lying on the floor, bawling in agony and answering the phone, chatting like nothing was wrong, then going back to the agony.  Life felt like a curse!!! 

 I met an amazing man who offered a lot of support through some really tough times and I am so grateful for him.  He introduced me to a therapist who did EMDR treatments and it helped me a great deal.  We then got married with the hope of having children.  We tried to get pregnant but had no luck.  This just pushed me further and further into depression because I kept thinking having children would make me happy – something in this world had to make me happy eventually.  I am so grateful now that I was unable to get pregnant at that time because I was still an emotional wreck, even though I had improved enough to feel stable at times. 

One day, my mother-in-law called and asked if I had ever tried BodyTalk.  I have to admit that what she described sounded a bit crazy to a computer programmer like me but I was willing to try anything to get pregnant at that point.  I remember my BodyTalk session with Allison Bachmeir was just so fascinating and I just wanted to know more about what she was doing.  I signed up for Modules 1 and 2 before I left her clinic and I began my BodyTalk journey. 

I fell in love with BodyTalk – it was my passion – I couldn’t stop taking BodyTalk courses because I just wanted to learn more.  I started a practice in March, 2007 and have enjoyed every moment of it.  I was able to wean off my medication with the help of BodyTalk before getting pregnant in 2008.  I had manyBodyTalk sessions, including one with Dr John Veltheim and took a number of BodyTalk course before getting pregnant and having 2 beautiful babies.  Having children was the most exciting thing for me, however, I began feeling like I was being pulled down the spiral of depression once again but because I was not suicidal like before, I did not recognize it as depression – until I had a session from Dr Veltheim in 2012.  His session addressed issues around the depression that I didn’t know I had.  A few days after his session, I began to see a therapist who led me to live in awareness – to watch how I am living.  Living with awareness showed me that I was so depressed but I had kept myself so busy that I never recognized it.  I knew that I needed to see a doctor.  I went to see my doctor the next day and I felt like the biggest failure sitting in the waiting room.  I was a BodyTalk practitioner – I am supposed to help people feel better – why on earth can’t I help myself feel better???  I got the prescription for the antidepressants and I literally felt better the second I had the prescription in my hand.  I now see how I had such a strong belief in medication and that is why I had to use the medication in order to feel better.  I saw Dr Veltheim again in April, 2013 and had another session from him.  I was freaking out before my session, wondering if I should tell him that I went on anti-depressants – would he think I am a failure as a practitioner for having to take medication?  I went up for my session with him and very sheepishly told him about the medication and he looked at me and said, “that’s great because sometimes the medication will help calm your brain down enough for the BodyTalk sessions to work”  Phew, he didn’t think I was a failure!  He did a session on me and I did feel much better after but still felt like I needed medication in order to function. 

In April, 2014 I saw John again for PaRama2 practical in Calgary.  He did a session on me and when I came home, I reached for my antidepressants and intuitively felt like I no longer needed them.  I stopped taking the pills that day and have never felt better.  It has been 3 months now and I feel great.  I am certainly not giving anyone the advice to quit their medication cold turkey without the assistance of their doctor but I just knew that I no longer needed the pills.  I see now, looking back, that the medication helped me cope better with life so I am so grateful for the pills but I see how important it is to continue on the path of healing to get to a space where we no longer need medication.  I feel alive again.  I FEEL my emotions again.  I feel sad and frustrated at times but I also feel happy and peaceful and alive as well – something that had felt so foreign to me for so long!!!  I am so grateful every day for the BodyTalk System.  I continue to heal in so many different areas of my life using BodyTalk – my relationships with others and with myself continue to change, my fears and worries are continually changing, my physical health is changing – basically everything in my life continues to change because I continue to have BodyTalk sessions regularly and I continue to take BodyTalk classes and I also continue to teach classes.  I love noticing improvements in my mental, emotional, physical and spiritual health and will never stop anticipating new levels of healing on this amazing journey that I am on.  Even through life’s challenges, I am able to find peace and accept that life is happening FOR me, not TO me and that inner wisdom and healing is happening as a result of the challenges!!!

Thank-you, John, for this amazing system that you developed.  I am grateful everyday for you <3
Chantelle Rodgers

Testimonial - Rheumatoid Factor Levels

Dear John,

I had a session with you at your Founder's Session Intensive and I am writing with an update on progress since that treatment.

As I mentioned to you at the time, following the birth of my child a number of years ago, and a bout of joint pain, it was found that I had a high Rheumatoid Factor reading. All other test results were consistently negative or normal but the high RF always remained and I had been told it would probably always be like that. 

You addressed this (amongst other things) during my session. I am delighted to report that my RF is now normal. After years of it being consistently in the 90's, recent blood tests showed it to be a very acceptable '10'. I am over the moon!

Thank-you.

BodyTalk Student - Singapore

Impossible Possibilities

After many years of problems with my left ovary my body finally did the right thing and killed it! Put it out of its misery! It had many cysts that ruptured, too many to even count, and one that was the size of a grapefruit and I hemorrhaged into it. I spent many days agonizing in pain in bed and several trips to the hospital and into surgery. When doctors couldn’t find that ovary, I thought Halleluiah! The doctors searched with several ultrasounds over the course of several months trying to figure out where it went. They requisitioned surgical records and determined it had been removed. It was completely gone, which I was fine with, until I saw my hematologist.

I have high platelets, due to a genetic disorder and my hematologist explained that because I was young, not menopausal, the risk of a stroke is minimal. “The best we can hope for is that western medicine will have a good solution for you once menopause sets in.” my hematologist tells me. However, I am starting to wonder about how solid this plan is? I am certain he is not talking with my gynecologist or my general physician, nor did he do any blood work on my hormone levels, so how does he know this is a good plan? Does he even know I am short one ovary?

Over time my mind is consumed again with this ovary, this time from a different perspective. Every time I had any symptoms that could be related to menopause (or several other things!) I thought about the missing ovary and how this was all going to affect my risk of a stroke. I hear John’s voice saying “It’s a dynamic interactive system” and I am learning this first hand. When one thing compensates, it really does affect everything else. So what am I going to do? My faith in the Western Medical System is declining rapidly; although I do believe it is responsible health care not to abandon that side of things all together. I pursue BodyTalk more vigilantly with a focus on this ovary that has gone MIA.

By the time I am in PaRama Unit 2 with John, I have already done quite a bit of work on this ovary. BreakThrough Steps that helped me to recognize the masculine/feminine imbalances and belief systems that perhaps had a helping hand in the total destruction of one of the most feminine pieces of my bodymind. FreeFall classes that taught me to breath into my pelvis, enriching the energy and life into a piece of me that was virtually dead. The opening of the heart and renewed circulation within the entire bodymind is the incredibly powerful healing that occurs only in this way within the FreeFall class. Structural Integration assisted on releasing fascia and aligning the structural integrity of my body to feel energy flow through every cell like I have never felt before. Several BodyTalk Sessions and a lot of MindScape work all set the stage for what was able to occur in the PaRama Unit 2 class.

As I am called up to be a demo session I am curious which PU2 technique will come up and what possibly could happen to this ovary that is making a subtle appearance now. The ovary at this point is very atrophied, but now visible. The Finding Health 2 technique is what comes up and it all becomes a bit of blur from here. I remember following my breath and then I feel bubbling and popping where my ovary is. The best I can describe is a bubble blower pipe that you blow into and there becomes a cluster of bubbles forming. This is what my ovary was doing! At this point I remember looking in John’s eyes and he is telling me that the cells were replicating themselves and the ovary was growing. I now had a healthy new ovary!

When I got off the table I could feel my entire pelvis shift to make room again for its lost resident. I bent over and it was so amazing, the awareness I had for this ovary. Part of what John told me was that I would be presented with situations in my life that would allow me to explore how this ovary disappeared in the first place…. Let me tell you, I have had several opportunities to explore! I can even feel it ovulate now, something I don’t ever remember feeling on the left side.

I am so blessed to have found this amazing system. There is not a day that goes by without appreciating for our amazing body’s ability to heal from within and to John and Esther for their strength to pursue their own healing journey so they can shine the light for the rest of us in our healing. I recall hearing somewhere that you cannot lead a client to a place where you have not been to yourself. I feel in clinic we get to see miracles happen every day and that day, in class, I physically felt one of my miracle as my ovary returned. 

Thank you John for being open to the impossible possibilities and holding the space for that to occur within me. I am truly inspired to continue learning, exploring and healing…. I truly believe impossible things are now possibilities, gifts of wisdom and healing to cherish ♥

Sherry Gilbert 

CBI, BAT, Adv.CBP

Open Heart

Hello John 

It's me, Kelley Burry, from Namaste Nova, NS Canada. You did a session for my heart in the last moments of Finding Health 2 in Florida.
  
The aftermath has been interesting........ 
For about 48 hours after, I experienced extreme pain in my chest and it felt like I had literally had open-heart surgery! I was even bruised! After this subsided I quickly began to feel wonderful in my physical and emotional body.  I am not swollen anymore nor do I feel heavy or congested or lethargic.  It seems incredible!  I have been experiencing a big change in my practice and what my sessions look like these days.  My focus is stronger, my MindScape is clearer, my intuition is quicker and I am more confident.  My daughter immediately noticed a huge energic shift on our farm retreat - she said it feels lighter and hopeful. 
  
Leo (one of my horses in the herd, you noticed that he was trying to help me with this issue in particular) is also changing daily!  At first I didn't think he was going to make it but I did exactly what you told me to do - tap his cortices a lot and tell him he does not have to carry this any more - it is done! He has waffled from severe colic in one moment to extreme joy and energy in the next, for weeks now! Leo is not out of the woods yet but we are paying close attention to him and allowing him to lead us through the process of whatever this is! 

It seems that my connection to the herd and to our land and all that is here is VERY heightened!!!! WHOA!! I feel like we are being supported on levels I can't even describe! 
There is more I seem to feel but do not have words to describe.

Thank-you for this new lease on life and this new experience! What a ride! 
Namaste

Heart Surgeon with a Heart

I had a wonderful set of experiences on my visit to Brazil earlier this year. It started out when a friend of mine asked me to treat her maid’s 9-year-old son with BodyTalk. He was small for his age and weak, because he had quite a severe hole in the heart. His doctors had reluctantly decided that they may have to operate to try and fix the problem as the boy was in great distress. They had booked him in for extensive scans to determine if, and what type, of operation they should do.

I saw him two days before he was due to go in for the scan. I was really thrilled to see that innate directed me to use the FH2 technique on him. When I placed my hand on his chest it was like his whole body shook to every heartbeat and you could literally feel the rumbling and turmoil of the blood passing between the two sides of his heart through the hole. Over the next few minutes I could feel everything just settling down, and the symptoms reduced by about 80%. The boy gave me the most wonderful smile as he placed his hand on top of mine. We could not communicate verbally, but we certainly communicated with our hearts. I realized the treatment wasn't fully completed because there is a certain adaption to take place with the body.

I treated him again the next day and felt that the heart was 95% better. He was due to have the scan the next day. The following evening I was told a remarkable story by the mother through Renata acting as my interpreter. Apparently, after the scan was finished the doctor told her that the machine they used was obviously faulty and they now required him to go to a different hospital the next day in order to be scanned by a new machine they know to be working fine.

The next day the boy was scanned on the new machine with the same result as the machine before. There was no evidence of a hole in the heart! The doctor just could not understand it, and listened intently as the mother described the treatment I had given the boy. Normally, my experience is that a situation like that leads the Doctor to simply put it out of his mind as some unexplainable phenomena.

The following week I was in the south of Brazil in Gramada attending the quantum health conference for which I was one of the speakers. I was also asked to do a three hour evening workshop to explain to BodyTalk more completely. I had a very good enrollment for the lecture and the questions were very enthusiastic.

At the end of the lecture two people who had asked many questions came up to me to speak to me in person. They explained that they were heart surgeons and worked at the same clinic as the surgeon who is looking after the boy with the hole in the heart. Apparently, he had shared his experience with them and lamented the fact that he could not come to hear me speak in Gramada.

The surgeons decided that they would come on short notice to attend this lecture because they take results like that very seriously, and really want to understand how that happened. They told me that they were now going to study all the courses of BodyTalk and will be in touch with me on one of my future trips. They were such nice people, so open, so loving, and I know for sure who I would go to if ever I needed heart surgery. They were truly heart surgeons with big hearts!

One Man's Ability to Heal

I have experienced my own remarkable healings with BodyTalk and so I have both reverence and respect for it, and, with each new healing experience, despite what my mind tries to tell me, sometimes, healing impossible to heal diseases is possible.

My 89 year old dad was diagnosed with colon cancer in October of 2011. I went with him to the doctor to get the results of the tests they had performed. The doctor told us that he had colon cancer and that they recommended operating to remove a portion of the colon, and, that they had booked a date for surgery for him. The doctor also told dad that he would live about a year if it spread which supported the recommendation to operate. I wanted him to have the surgery. He didn’t. He told the doctor he was busy on that day and couldn’t have the surgery then. He told the doctor he’d like to wait and have another colonoscopy down the road instead. Since dad is 89 the doctor didn’t argue with him, but did mention that wasn’t the usual protocol. Usually cancer gets treated when it’s diagnosed if the patient is healthy enough for it, and dad was.

As we walked out of the hospital he told me he was, in his words, ‘a naturalist’. To him that means that nature is perfect and what ever happens will take care of everything, and he didn’t want any medical intervention even if it meant dying. He said that if he was younger he might consider it. He thought surgery might makes matters worse at his age. He told me he wasn’t scared of dying but that living less than a full life concerned him some. He still works his own cattle and irrigates the land.

On the way out of the hospital, he asked me if I could do BodyTalk for him. Of course my answer was yes. But, I wondered if doing this work would give him false hope. This was cancer we were considering here. I told him I didn’t know if it would help or not, but it seems like he healed himself quickly with BodyTalk every time he had previously asked for a session to heal a minor ache or pain. A few years ago BodyTalk assisted him in healing gout.

I did two sessions with dad in my office and other practitioners and I did approximately eleven more sessions, with his permission, by distance.

Another biopsy was performed in May, 2012 and the doctor said the cancer was gone.

Thank you for pioneering this work, John. I realize that not every person will be able to heal themselves like he has, but in this case he did.

Warm regards from Brenda Miller, CBP

Thank you from Fred Mandeville